I built a blog. I built it fast and furious, and spent a pile of hours, money and energy trying to keep it growing.
Every day was consumed with ideas for growth, transactional commenting, focusing posts on what would draw people rather than what I really wanted to say.
I built it with the excitement and fervor that I put into everything initially, and then it only took a couple of events to push me away from it.
Now some, including my wife, would call that ADD. Hell, I have called it that myself.
But the past few months have taught me something else that has been slapping me on the back of the head for a very long time, and I've been ignoring the hand.
I have a life out of balance.
I recently went on an outing with my daughter. We went to do something that she wanted, that it was uncommon for a Daddy to attend, and we spent the whole day, just her and I. And she has talked about it every day since.
And I realized I have a life out of balance.
I've been working hard. At work, at home, at my life. I'm simply trying harder. At everything. Trying to be a better Dad. Trying to be a better husband. A better employee. For as much as I have tried to paint the picture of the humble father who is fully in attendance in his life, I have growing room still. A lot.
So I am back to blogging today, but it is going to be different. Because like my daughter and her friend peering into the abyss of a scarcely populated tank and wondering what they are supposed to be looking at, I am seeing things in my life that shouldn't be, and not seeing some things that I should.
Join me in my quest if you wish. I hope to catch up with each of you at some point soon, but give me time. I will be going at this slowly. But know that I think of each of you, and read you often still.
Thanks again to Angie
for another ragin' Wordful Wednesday..."